There is such beauty in simplicity. I often neglect this. I become so anxious about every little thing. When I say everything, I mean EVAAARREEETHANNNG. Since being hear, I have learned how much I use this anxiety as a crutch.
Neglecting the simple fact of my salvation is the root of this anxiety I am almost certain. I have become so caught up in knowing as much as head knowledge as I possibly can. I’ve deceived myself into thinking that if I know more, then I will love God more. Oh have I lost the head-heart connection! I have failed to recognize that loving God is about LOVING God.
When I seek first His kingdom and His righteousness (Matthew 6:33), I also seek others out, seek out His will, seek out relationships, care for others more deeply, and care for myself more deeply. It is such a simple realization, I know, but oh how beautiful it has been to have this revelation through struggles. I have been in this anxious state for far too long, and I’ve had just about enough.
In order to seek the Lord, I know that for my heart… I am going to have often search else where than just Scripture. This is not a knock on the Word by any means, but I tend to read that to gain knowledge… and it can be dangerous for my soul if I am not careful. For me to seek Him, I look at simplicity. The simplicity of the gifts that He has given us:
Sunflowers: I can learn so much from them… they look to the sun, always. They flourish in fields, they grow together. When the sun goes down, they hide their faces… Why don’t I look at the Son, always? And when I sense darkness coming, seek the Light? The simplicity of this flower, but yet the complexity, divinity, and blessing it is. Oh how I wish I was more like a sunflower, a Sonflower is what I wish to be. Lord, teach me to be a Sonflower, to set my eyes on you, to flee from darkness, to flourish within the body. Papa, I want to set my eyes on your Son.
“For my Father’s will is that everyone who looks to the Son and believes in Him shall have eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day.” John 6:40